Yeah, well... hum...let's see... I'm trying to figure out how to summarize what's been happening since I last updated on DA for those who are only here on DA and curious.

It's difficult to sum up but here's my best go at it:

In April after putting us on the verge of bankruptcy promising to ship him 'any day now' since Dec. 17th the US Navy FINALLY sent Justin off to Basic Training. Sadly, unknown to us it was just in time to disrupt all of our plans for our wedding, which was forced off in June but we weren't informed about this until after we'd given up our apartment thinking I was going to meet Justin in California (we used the money saved from not having to pay rent to buy a plane ticket out to San Jose for me.)

Now, the thing was Justin said he'd help me get home from the Great lakes Navel Base outside Chicago using his pay check that was suppose to come in the day of and not to worry about finding my own way back to CO where I was planning to stay with friends for a week until jumping state to CA. So, I showed up with $25 to my name and then was informed through not fault of Justin's I was 'on my own' when he revealed the wedding was being forced off due to restrictions they place on new Sailors and there was no money to give me to 'get home'... noting there was no home to go back to.

SO, I jumped a Greyhound to Minneapolis from Chicago because at the time I didn't know anyone in Chicago but a ride to MN was only $25 and my friend Carrie was there. After a week I realized there was no where for me to 'go back to' and until December of 2010 when Justin graduates from 'A School' no where for me to go 'forward to'. I have always loved Minneapolis so I decided to try to stick it out here and find something productive to do for awhile.

I was a little too quick to sign up at the 'Art Institutes International of Minnesota' getting talked into starting much sooner than I knew I was ready for and ended up pulling out after breaking down the week that my wedding was suppose to be. I worked mostly into trying to lift 'rojectRUFF' (Research Undertaken for Furs) out of it's grass roots phase as a way of giving back to an incredible community that has pulled me through most of this year and trying to set roots down in MN.

But some major issues disrupted my ability to do so. My left leg, which has always difficult due to my cerebral palsy, decided to stop working properly and a burning hot pain as I have never felt began to strike it hard. Eventually, I became unable to walk without the aid of a cane and a small ankle brace. This coupled with my year long struggle to alter my life style to become gluten free since finding out I have Celiacs Disease in January began taking a toll on my physical being.

Pushing onward, I tried to lay roots by finding regular employment with no luck. The conventions had proven for a year to be pretty reliable income but small things stepped up to make each show fail from completely losing my voice at AC for 2/3 days, skipping RMFC in Colorado from being unable to emotionally handle returning to the state I was to marry on the day I was suppose to marry and sale through what was suppose to be my honeymoon weekend to becoming so distracted I lost track of what day/ week it was in September nearly missing RF and the drama/ poor luck which tainted FF. This lead to some parts of ProjectRUFF moving forward and other parts falling to the way side.

Currently, I'm now moving to New Mexico to be with my adopted family, best friend, furry community I appear to know many of (which I didn't realize until I really thought about it) and will be going to a community college for my new love, my new passion, my new thing in life that makes me wiggle with happy - accounting. I'm glad i gave one more go at AiMn but it's really... not for me. I'm just not a graphic designer or animator and the design management program, while having a lot to give, isn't what I need to pull my life together again. Sweet sweet CPA knowledge, though, is.

Things I have learned since I have been gone:

> Everyone has something going for them as well as against them. When interacting with other humans energy is much better spent trying to aid the first of the two. Otherwise, in speeding up someone elses defeat one risks slowing down their own progress. That's just wasteful.

> Asking for help can oddly enough bring about opportunities for you to help others. Seriously, the whole thing seems to start a title wave of awesome. People generally like helping other people and doing so makes them feel good and often makes them feel as if they can open up to seek help as well. Even those not helping directly become touched by the act through observation. Upon opening or observing you often see something you can give back or pay forward. Just, someone has to have the courage to recognize they need help and ask for it. Which is hard but, man, can wonderful things come from it.

> Life. Is. Hard. Many say the most important thing to do is prepare for the worst and hoping for the best. Which is fine and dandy but that suggests you know what those are. In reality the most difficult things you will face will be the things you can't see coming and the best will be far beyond your wildest dreams. The real important part is to continue forward no matter how prepped you are for either.

> I look really good in light blue. Like, amazing.
What? Not everything I've learned is deep or heart warming.

And now for some cool links to things on Youtube!
[link] < Write it Like a Seagull by Josh Hicks
[link] < by Guillaume Chartier
[link]layer_embedded < Good Morning America report about a breakthrough vaccine for AIDS which RULES!

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